kedatangan 2013

well, inilah mungkin kali terakhir untuk blog ini berfungsi, selepas 1.1.2013 jam 12.00AM , aku akan tutp blog ini dan tidak akan membukanya lagi.

it time to move on and had a new life, azam baru? tidak tahulah. tidak terpikir pun . i think leave the bad habit i think.

2012, erm well it been hard time but most of it is bad hard time, but there alway a good time.

many memories and never unexpected memory to had.....

i'm blank tidak tahu apa mahu tulis dah..... well itu sahaja lah well. anyone that read it... enjoy reading and knowing my life.....

bye and  A HAPPY NEW YEAR 2013. GBU

hey..... em....

I don't know but.... I felt like missing something and I don't know what -_-

have too know that i felt empty in my brain and i my heart.....

i just cant figure it out..... i want to know .... but how?

is it about her? maybe argh.... i just dont know....

or it just in my mind..... well it does and it give a pain....

i need you maybe but i just cant right?
i want you by my side but i cant right?
i want too stay but you but cant?
everything is cant,cant,and cant......

please help me.....
GOD..... i need you help now.... tell me what i should do....
if she is the one for please give me a sign....
and if not..... tell me now and who should i be with....
i really want to know now..... please..... 

i'm really depreased now 

tell me now please..... i'm begging you....
end this pain huhuhu.... remove it .....

gudnite...... end 4 today~

All I'm asking for is one night together. Just you and me. All alone. And if you can honestly say you don't feel anything for me after that night, I will finally let you go.

You always say you hate to see me hurt, and you hate to see me cry. So all those times that you hurt me, did you close your eyes?

You wonder why I don't talk to you anymore and please believe me when I say it's not that I don't want to, it's just that everything I want to say I can't tell you anymore.

Maybe they are right. Maybe I did get my hopes up too high. Maybe I was in over my head. Maybe I am the stupid one for ever thinking that you loved me, but maybe, just maybe, I am tired of being alone.

tutup atau biarkan

dalam dilema sekarang ni mahu tutup kah atau biarkan dan teruskan sahaja blog ini,
kalau dia nampak segala apa yang aku tulis di blog ni, mesti kena marah aku lepas tuw memang ini kali tidak kena trgur suda sama dia dam.....!!!!

arghhhh apa patut aku buat....? huhuhuhu

tapi aku sayang bha mahu tutup blog ni , kira blog ni macam diari aku, tapi dismping itu ia juga kenangan lama yang kalau dia nampak memang akan merumitkan lagi cara perhubungan sama dia...

why....? keputusan ini susah betul, buat keptusan sebelum hujung tahun ni.....

that alll for today.......




nyte~~~~~~~~*

saturday and soon christmas

have fun with everyone in the youth Christmas  been arranged, and it been a long time seen i see you face really close , a long time you face of happy n_n.

and i got too send you home well you sister house .

it really make me happy.

at least before the event end, i got to take a picture with you well with all friend.

got to told to you, even if it just a simple asking conversation .

really wanT to told to you more but i just cant really hope hight , if i could . the courage not there.... yet 

em... ..... birthday, you birthday it gonna came soon ....

wanna wish you but i dont know if you will accept the wish....

as usual i'm really gonna go back being my old self , a shy person.....

really hope cant talk to you more , not like special person with each other conversation but maybe just a plain simple talk....

=to be continue next blog=

oxoxoxgoodnitexoxox

childhood fun than today

let's me think, okey i'm a little confused what i really want.....

what i really want is too have someone like you that understand my situation or maybe you dont but you try to, really.

i'm a jerk i just want too make up with you but i just cant, i do want to but i dont know how, and if i do get better with you, will it be worth it , when we just gonna be there for each other when we needed someone....

well i think it worth it.... i never thought of taking an advantages with you, i just want someone to talk to how i felt, how i feel, because believe me i had a rough time nowaday, and i needed someone like you.

there was a time that i try to replace you but then it dont felt the same, something not right, something that i cant really understand nor explain it with word, something that is you.......... it sound stupid, but it does, maybe we are not made for each other but we are made for talking with each other to felt the comfort, it feel like the comfort of a best friend , maybe it more too that buT i cant really understand it, it not love, i know it not.....

the thing is i like to get better with you, being each other something that we cant really explain it.... but their something about you, like a signature from you that cant really spell it out....

i dont really hope much but, if the chance are..... i would take it really seriously i would to be able to talk to you without any past presence blocking us..... n_o 

oxoxoxoxnight bloggerxoxoxox 

5 minute before sleep

hai blog, lama tidak tulis ni.... biasalah dengan kehidupan yang serba kekurangan , kerana itulah baru update2 n_n

now? holiday 3 week, ehe..... nice...... time too rest a bit....

well life is go on like everyday,

em well not like everyday anywhere.....

tidak tahu mahu update apa.....

so tell a story.....

there this one girl like me a lot.....
everyday she message me....
pendekkan cerita , jadi rapatlah kami...... n_n
then she confess to me (what!? so sweet )
but then i turn her down (why you no good !@#$%)
sebab tidak tahulah , bukan tidak boleh terima dia cuma, aku mahu relaks la
and i dont think i can afford to make her happy.... 
so we just be friend, but maybe one day, kalau kita ada jodoh
sure why not....... right.....

and the truth, know what i still have that someone i still cant forget
yes, guess you know SI ''DIA'' n_n
well dia tepati juga permintaan aku, kinda dumb suruh dia buat begitu tapi
benda sudah jadi jadi xpayah lah mahu baiki, (still want to but cant)

oklah lah time to sleep bubye blogger

P/s: i dont think i really trust girl really hard now sorry to said it.....